Hitting me

It's been slowly creeping up on me.  That nagging feeling, that separation is going to happen, and I planned it, I am responsible for it.   I feel mounting sadness and concern for my loved ones as the day of departure draws near.  As much as I am totally excited about the trip, I am wishing I didn't have to leave those I love behind.  The magnitude of being apart for 30 days is hitting me, now.